Just today. I don't know what to say. I feel so overwhelmed.
And I still can't believe I made it through.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
I'm still the emo kid who writes using her blackberry during car rides.
My parents found out about the ongoing 265-paged novel I'm working on, along with a dozen more manuscripts and drafts and separate chapters.
I'm very disappointed with myself for not hiding it well, but I curse the fact that they are very disrespectful to my privacy. I should've known this is coming, after all I always find their praises on my writings quite fishy, but I didn't expect them to have ALL of them saved in their computer.
And to tell you the truth, that story wasn't exactly the kind I'd love my parents to read. It's an attempt on crude humor and black comedy, with a little spices called sex and lustrous affairs. I swear it's not a teenage literature with some romancy stuff like Twilight, in fact I think it's pretty good and I had given my all for that story. It's just... having my parents to read my little parallel universe, is beyond awkward. No it's more than that actually, it's far worse. They're the least persons I'd like to have my novel read by.
I'm very disappointed with myself for not hiding it well, but I curse the fact that they are very disrespectful to my privacy. I should've known this is coming, after all I always find their praises on my writings quite fishy, but I didn't expect them to have ALL of them saved in their computer.
And to tell you the truth, that story wasn't exactly the kind I'd love my parents to read. It's an attempt on crude humor and black comedy, with a little spices called sex and lustrous affairs. I swear it's not a teenage literature with some romancy stuff like Twilight, in fact I think it's pretty good and I had given my all for that story. It's just... having my parents to read my little parallel universe, is beyond awkward. No it's more than that actually, it's far worse. They're the least persons I'd like to have my novel read by.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
cocksucker!
Got sen out from some tukang ngajar inten mofo cuz I didn't bring a bloody book and was 'disrespectful' by being on the phone (which I had been doing before that shit came btw). So I'm sitting all by myself outside, thinking oh maybe I can talk to that thug today, so I did. First three minutes went alright, but then he blamed me for disappearing? And he's doing it again! "That was all you" my ass. God he is soooo gay. Gay as a rainbow. Gay as the jonas faggots put together. So gay that perez hilton would consider going out with. Ok I'm not making any sense right here, but I'm really pissed (and mega bored) right now. No signs of miracle either... Gahh this sucks.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
woah
I've forgotten so much that I had this blog. Anyway, it's Ramadan now. The sad part is, my favorite clubs are closed while the bars don't serve booze. But the good part is that I can have a reason not to eat.
Anyway. Today, during fasting break I had early dinner with my parents only since my brother was out somewhere and my sister is in college overseas. We shared some laughs when I read them bits and pieces from Overheard New York, and then somehow we ended up talking about soulmates. Which led them to tell me these stories about their dating years. Seriously it was so funny. And they're still teasing each other about it.. God that was hilarious. But what makes me happy is that they're still so in love with each other despite their differences and how our life goes fucking rad. It's nice to know that no matter they get on each other's nerves, during dinnertimes as simple as this, they still love each other and we're a family.
God I'm having such a perfect Kodak moment right now. I wish this never ends.
Anyway. Today, during fasting break I had early dinner with my parents only since my brother was out somewhere and my sister is in college overseas. We shared some laughs when I read them bits and pieces from Overheard New York, and then somehow we ended up talking about soulmates. Which led them to tell me these stories about their dating years. Seriously it was so funny. And they're still teasing each other about it.. God that was hilarious. But what makes me happy is that they're still so in love with each other despite their differences and how our life goes fucking rad. It's nice to know that no matter they get on each other's nerves, during dinnertimes as simple as this, they still love each other and we're a family.
God I'm having such a perfect Kodak moment right now. I wish this never ends.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
questions!
Why am I a girl, too sensitive about things and even after telling myself a million times that I'm over him I'm still not and never will?
Why is he a guy, forfeiting his life to be my knight but disappears so often and makes false promises?
Why is there time differences and oceans, keeping us apart?
Why do things get really awkward after I return home?
Why does it have to be us to have a godforsaken relationship?
Why is he a guy, forfeiting his life to be my knight but disappears so often and makes false promises?
Why is there time differences and oceans, keeping us apart?
Why do things get really awkward after I return home?
Why does it have to be us to have a godforsaken relationship?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
lala?
God this blog looks fugly compared to my official one. Or not-so-official since it's set to private. I've had that one since 2005. I have this urge to show it to my friends and exchange links and stuff since those writings are dying to be told, but I have secrets I don't want the world to know (say... Family problems?). Ah the dilemma. Okay I'm done, back to chem.
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