watching the city from 18th floor

I'm still at the hospital. I feel completely bored I can't hold back the urge to go home. Got a lot to do and still indebted in art... Sigh. Don't even remind me. Anyhow. I was talking to my "gay" friend who had a crush on me (I'm just being honest because it was so obvious, and I didn't feel comfortable about it cuz he was my best guy friend) and I'm super relieved that he's found a new girl to fancy in his new university. I was like OMG finally, someone new! It felt so good that we can finally talk to each other again without being awkward (him, trying to make a move on me; me, denying him nicely all the freaking time). Feels so good to have a good friend back! At the end of our 3 hour phone call, we wished each other luck on our love lives. Wholeheartedly.I find it wonderful that people move on, but I hated the fact that I couldn't. Not love-wise, though. College life is just a matter of days and frankly speaking, I am absolutely and undoubtedly TERRIFIED.